I failed again. BUT I actually didn’t do bad overall! I just had too many error points past the pass limit. I did much better than the first time as I was more confident, I just was too nervous and also stressed about it and other things. The examiner-Brian-was lovely and didn’t ruin my confidence like the last one. After the test I forgot to straighten the wheels (I had cut them to the right as I was parked) though and drove over a flower planter full of black-eyed Susans. I won’t get to take it again until at least October though due to booking.
My confidence has gotten a lot better. And a lot of my nerves come from being scrutinised, and also how important my getting my full driver's license is to getting a job and everything. The weight crushs on me and I do a small mistake and then that snowballs. I tend to catastrophise! But driving alone I do better. I am just so low & stressed anyways that this has me feeling like I'm lying when I'm telling myself things will be alright. It also didn't help this time that I didn't sleep well due to my TMD being exasperated by subconscious clenching of my jaw in my sleep due to the stress. My doctor gave me stronger anti-inflammatories & some painkillers Thursday, but I have had to suffer due to the alertness for driving practice and then my test. Your dad had surgery on his jaw, and I really should ask you to ask him more into that :/