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Subject:"In For The Kill (Skream remix)" -- La Roux
Time:11:21 pm
Current Mood:nauseatednauseated


"I'm going in for the kill. I'm [not] doing it for a thrill. Oh, I'm hoping you'll understand, and not let go of my hand."

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I haven't unlocked my last entry, and in general have been avoiding online. Pretty much I feel like any words I type or say just dissipate or are twisted around. Nothing I fear, am hurt by, or have ever done matters. Nothing feels safe/alright. And I really don't think I can handle it any more. I'll try to stick about until VLR comes out though.

Anyway; last night I kept listening to La Roux, Duran Duran, Adele, & finally finished "Death In Blackpool". I put my summer/spring clothes in a garbage bag, and put my autumn/winter clothes in my drawers. I gathered-up bedding that I no longer wanted or needed and put it into bags. I hung all my belts & dress clothes back up. Today I worked ore on my getting all of the treasure chests in Dream Drop Distance, and have tried not to vomit. I've been nauseous consistently fir awhile now, but today just has been terrible. I'm hoping that it settles for tomorrow as I have a lot of errands, and long car rides before my MRI. I got a call from Valley Regional today saying to show-up half an hour before my original time, to go directly to the room number, and to pick up a telephone that would be on the wall to register.--It was very cryptic like in a spy movie. I'm still going to see the front desk though, but I do know where the MRI room is. I don't know when the results will be available, or when I'll even learn them as I've not been going to physiotherapy. I don't feel as wanted there since Patrick left, I know I'm an excess patient, and on top of that infection I had I've been busy with Nick & Ciderfest. I can definitely feel/tell I've not been going, and with all this rain we've been having here I've been in pain again. I also know that if this leads to needing surgery, or another visit to a specialist, I'll be requesting someone else besides the orthopedic surgeon I already saw as I don't need anymore feeling like crap right now. I also have been failing at doing most of my daily excercises :/ I got out of it when I was sick, and now am just urgh over it.

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Nicki is doing well though, if he would only eat his new diet. I am trying him with a specially ordered bag of a brand the veterinary office doesn't keep in stock because he has refused to eat the C/D kind, and only picked at the S/O one. He also isn't too interested in the 2 brands of soft cat food I've tried, but Nick doesn't care much for soft food anyway (except the smelly/cheap Meow Mix kind in plastic containers). Nicolas has always been a picky eater though, and refuses to eat 'people food' except for occasionally tuna & oddly cake icing. He had Feline Rhinotracheitis when he was a kitten though, and has nasal passage damage from it, so I think he might not have the best sense of smell. I've just got to keep trying him with urinary diet though, since if he doesn't eat it he likely will form crystals again, and he has lost about a pound so far. I'm worried about him, and I'm pissed that cats are so difficult.

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In other pet news my Sea Monkeys were doing lovely, I had about 12 adults & lots of little ones. But last week I added water to the tank and the corpse of one of my 3 pregnant females floated up. Since then I've found 2 more corpses, but now I just see 5 Sea Monkeys in there (and a few baby specks), but even after aerating & adding water I've seen no more corpses. I'm worried about them as well.

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And since my last entry is Private, I'll say that "The Mentalist" has started up again! I don't know how I feel about the new air day (It's been Thursdays since I started watching last year), but the premier was really good. My Sunday was pizza, perry, & Patrick Jane...though I didn't manage to sleep very well when I finally did go to beds. I've since watched all the "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" I had on my DVD player flashdrive, so I need to copy the rest of Season 4 onto it. I never saw Season 4 before, and my favourite character left in an episode that made me feel heartbroken & sick...and I never saw it coming until said episode. I'll definitely have to copy more off to get me through Thanksgiving. I'm not welcome at dinner again this year, though I wasn't expecting to be after how my birthday went. I'm going to try to buy a package of thighs & breasts (less sexy than it sounds), cranberry jelly, StoveTop Dressing, and maybe some sweet potatoes though, as last year was spent here alone & sobbing into a VH Steamer.
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alchemy_hisoka
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Time:2012-10-08 07:21 pm (UTC)
I actually know the song lyrics! (But only because an IronFrost [Tony Stark/Loki] music video used that song.)

Is Oz the Buffy the Vampire character you're talking about? And the episode where he cheats on Willow with the female werewolf? It's been a while since I watched the show, but I can't think of anyone else who left in season four.

Even though I prefer the earlier seasons of Buffy, I started watching the show in the later seasons and so am more attached to Tara and Spike than Oz and Angel. Plus, the Willow/Tara relationship was one of the first LGBTQ couples I was ever exposed to and they meant a great deal to me in my own sexuality and gender struggles.

I've heard a lot of people dislike season four due to Adam and the whole Initiative idea, but I rather like the season. It's got really amazing episodes like "Hush," "Restless," and "Pangs" (I think that's the name -- it's a Thanksgiving episode). One of the early season four episodes, where Buffy has a roommate from hell, was a favourite of mine to watch right before the fall semester started. Plus, season four was when Spike was ambiguously helpful and, in my opinion, the most fun -- a bridge between his more villainous characterisation and his later buckets of angst and issues.

Seasons five through seven I don't really like, both because of the introduction of Dawn and the way the writers took the characters.

*hug* I'm sorry things are going so shitty. It makes my heart ache that you won't be with the rest of the family at Thanksgiving dinner today.
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lady_noremon
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Time:2012-10-11 05:22 am (UTC)
CTV when it was owned by Chum Media (now owned by horrid Bell) used to show shows from MTV late at night, and "Live From Abney Road"(sp?) was one of them and La Roux/Elly Jackson preformed it. It is about her flying overseas for a long-distance relationship, it sounds so full of hope, reckless abandonment, but sad too. But I think Elly Jackson is very cool, and I love her fashion.

Yes, Oz. It just was so sudden, and felt like it wasn't fair to the characters. I didn't care much if he was in a relationship with Willow, but to suddenly have the most centred & trustworthy character act stupid and cheat was just urgh (Cheating really bothers me anyway). I know it was sudden because Seth Green had other things, but still. Like the show had spent almost a season repairing the whole Willow/Xander thing (which I didn't care for), just to have Oz know what would happen if he invited her there & locked himself up with her. Like it just seemed urgh. I'd rather if he was going to leave the show still have it about not being able to control the wolf, but even just sleeping with her while changed would be enough for that. He could have just tranquilised her. Instead it felt kinda like when they ruined Chef on "South Park" (the voice actor was offended by stuff in the show about his religion, and left. So the creators spliced voice-clips together and wrote Chef out by making him a child molester.). BUT besides that rant, I do really like Tara. When she first appeared she reminded me of me with her shy awkwardness. But I love how she's become her own character. Their cat is also adorable & has a really fluffy tail!

I found it alright! The demons in "Hush" didn't creep me out when I started watching it before sleep--in fact I fell asleep during the episode. But when I continued the next day, the straightjacket things gave me willies D: I loved Spike living with Giles and laughed so hard at him yelling about hs soap opera being on. I loved "A New Man" too, but I generally like silliness. Giles as a demon driving around with Spike, and also getting out just to chase Dr. Walsh was fantastic~ I felt so bad for Riley and how horrifying it all must have been for him (especially discovering what became of his mentor & his best-friend D: )! I've just started Season 5 and already I dislike some of the paths things are going, so I'm glad it isn't just me!--I found Victorian Spike one of the best things ever though.

And yeah, though me being 'not family' is the worst. As you know, I mostly grew-up with them, and have lived full time here for over half my life. And with everything else it hurts even more. I just don't feel I belong anywhere, or have any value most anywhere/to most anyone. It is a horrible, horrible feeling, and one that keeps feeling like it is being confirmed by acts like this. And even things I think will be okay-like Mother's Day-are not. I really don't know how I'll deal with Christmas since last year was bad enough, but it will be even worst this year. I'll be so damn alone *sigh*. But at least some still think of me, and such. Some strings of love in all the crap. *hugs*
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alchemy_hisoka
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Time:2012-10-12 07:35 pm (UTC)
If I started watching Buffy as a new viewer today, I don't know if I'd like it. There's an awful lot of drama and some soap operaishness involved. Like the whole Willow/Xander/Cordelia thing. And Joss Whdeon's 'no one can ever be in a long-term, happy relationship!' thing.

As it is, though, Buffy's more happily nostalgic.

Like you say, Oz was generally a trustworthy and calm character.

I also remember the Chef episode on South Park. It was shortly after - and because of - their Scientology episode, wasn't it?

I love "A New Man" as well. Hell, I love Giles in general!

The 'people being stupid and cheating/doing other terrible things to their significant other' sadly doesn't get any better from season five on.

I wish I could bring you here for Christmas. Or have transporters and organise a grand get-together.
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