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Subject:From Nintendo 3DS On June 22ND, 2012
Time:04:14 am
Current Mood:melancholymelancholy
Well yesterday was my birthday. I turned 24 at 4:00PM. I was born a month premature, and weighed 4 pounds 8 ounces.

Tuesday after sneaking to the funeral home to sign Claude's*** guest book. I picked-up the bathouse my mother ordered from a friend of my high school tech' ed'/shop teacher. It is huge! And since I expected a regular sized one, I have no idea where to mount it now. I'll probably need to save & buy a post from a lumber place for it. This bat lodging has a nursery compartment & can house so, so many bats. Hopefully it will be used by the adorable little creatures.

In Wednesday's morning mail I received a pirate-y card & a Scotland keychain, a parcel I have yet to open yet, and "9 Hours, 9 Persons, 9 Doors"--I always love receiving postal mail. Then I dragged myself to get dressed & went on a cake hunting expedition. I traditionally get a Dairy Queen ice-cream cake, but I still have a piece from last year's in the freezer, so I wanted a chocolate marble cheesecake or a carrot cake (with nuts, spices, & not a ridiculous amount of icing) for a change. Well the person I've bought cakes from before is no longer baking, so I had quite a time finding a bakery that bakes cheesecakes between Annapolis Royal & Greenwood (a lot of places have from freezer ones). Finally I found Leo's Café, and ordered one there. Once I got back I just couldn't distract myself from the impending dread & crap, so I somehow managed to stuff my face with a Philly cheese steak panini, a can of perry, & a Fuji apple. Since it was all I had eaten that day, the perry landed me in the buzzed state where things don't greatly effect me as much/I was numbed to not give as much damn as normal. I laid down to watch "Coronation Street" but ended-up falling asleep until after midnight.

When I woke it was my birthday and I was too agitated to go back to sleep, so I tried watching television until hit by a bad urge to play 999. But I figured 999 would creep me out. Finally I decided to just stay-up all night, make tacos, & try 999. And if 999 got too freaky, I'd watch "The Prestige" or S02E03 of "Sherlock". I escaped from the starting 5 room, and eventually tried to sleep again around 5:00AM. Well I couldn't get settled & started sobbing so I got up again & sat in the kitchen drinking tea & playing 999 until June got up. I stopped just before The 9TH Man part as I knew from spoilers what was coming, and exhaustedly collapsed asleep back in bed.

I was awoken again at around 8AM by an adoptive sister fighting with June. I don't think it was about me, though I still felt really bad because she did her best to be hurtful & make her mother cry before she left again. So I just gave-up on sleep & stayed with June until my biological mother arrived to drive me to Leo's Café. The cake was fancier than I expected, and I learned that my cousin Barbie works there. When I got back I had a very hard time getting the cake into a container due to it softening in the heat and having 'help' from Lydia & Minnow. After having some I played 999 again until the 3, 7, or 8 door choice & then went to bed. I woke-up around 10PM and checked online; especially sheikxlink_fc for contest entries. I am saddened that there are none & I feel more idiotic too. I was really looking forward to it, especially zeffyface's entry as they are my favourite Shink author & they said they were entering. The Shink community is one of the very few remaining places I have any seeming value, so for the contest I organised to not have anyone bother to post in (they had a full month to post) well just seems to confirm things more. I'll wait until I wake-up to post asking what happened & extend the deadline (the 27TH sounds good as it's digital root is 9).

I went into my birthday the same way I played though the 'Penalty Behind Door 5' in 999. I had no hope it would turn-out differently, or anything I could do would change it. I didn't 'whore out' for birthday wishes or anything, but even if I did I knew that a lot of the people that I do care about wouldn't bother contacting me on it. And that a lot of people that I just went to school with & have nothing to do with now would post on my Facebook Wall/Timeline. I actually debated deactivating my FB account to prevent that wash of falseness(?); but I just couldn't be assed. But even people I care about that I thought had a good chance of contacting didn't. So yeah, on the day they are most likely to & don't, well yeah--I just mean it's more confirmations. But some close people did contact me, so there was some sincerity & brightening. It's just I knew the day would show again how most of my families/friends hate me or have decided I'm not worth existence. But at least I wasn't horrified this time, and don't have hope to lose anymore.

This whole week has been hard though. With Claude dying (and I never got to buy him those fish & chips), The Sprague's being back in Nova Scotia, & Fathers' Day.
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lady_noremon
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Time:2012-06-24 05:30 am (UTC)
I posted some pictures of 999, my cake, & the bathouse on my Facebook and on { http://twitpic.com/photos/T3hSheikan }**, if anyone is interested.

**@T3hSheikan is the Twitter account that I post pictures to with my RAZR so I can share them on Plurk, but so I'm not posting pictures publicly on my main Twitter; thus people don't have to be disgruntled by me tweeting directly. Though I only have 5 pictures left on my cellular-telephone, and I have no want to go on my Shaglehod to transfer the pictures I have off to free space, so I probably won't be uploading pictures there or on Facebook again for awhile.
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lady_noremon
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Time:2012-06-24 02:14 pm (UTC)
***Claude was my ex's grandfather, yet I still visited him I few times. Last time I did he mentioned wanted fish & chips, and I promised I'd get him some. And then last week he just took a bad turn and didn't last a day from the time I learned he was sick. I wasn't even able to see him before because I'm not family.

They only had a funeral for him with no prior visitation. But June is friends with the funeral home owner, so she got him to let me sneak over and sign the guest book. I really, really didn't want to run into or have to see The Spragues. It's bad enough from having to call about my Alberta medical records, and with me feeling utterly meaningless already, but I don't need to feel weak as well. And then there is how I was extorted for money**** to get my stuff shipped back. I am still angry about that.

****I had paid them to ship my art supplies & portfolio back when I left, and had the rest of my stuff stored there to pay for/ship later. Well months after they sent other things besides the portfolio, and when called asked for more money to ship that. My art portfolio & supplies are all the work I did over 8 months and is irreplaceable. So we sent more money and again something different was sent. And stuff had been unpacked and repacked in different boxes than I had originally packed it in (I wrote everything down when I did). And again they said that the portfolio would have cost more than I sent, so I needed to send more. They promised that they'd send it next & even claimed to have priced it beforehand. So more money was sent. And what arrived was not my art, and had again been repacked. Yet this time one thing was one of my pillowcases on a pillow that was not mine (I had tossed my pillows when I left), and the set of pots/pans I had bought for the dorm-house. June & I opened the pans to look and discovered that someone had cooked spaghetti in them, and then just repacked the dirty dishes. We tried to clean them but they were utterly ruined and we threw them out in clean-up [twice a year you can put garbage out that normally you can't (except for electronics); like couches & mattresses]. The Spragues would give no explaination, just requested more money to finally send my portfolio. We sent more, and intended to seek legal action if it was not sent then (I had saved all the bank receipts!).

Months passed and we heard nothing. June called and got assured it would be sent soon. And more months passed. Finally I just started sending daily text-to-landline to their home telephone requesting that my irreparable portfolio be sent. I think that did it because it & my art supplies arrived by courier not long after. ...And the stated price-as expected-wasn't what they had claimed. Some of my textbooks I had packed in with the supplies were missing, and a set of silicon molds, but the unreplaceable/expensive bits were there [though some had spoiled from being in a shed (that sweltered in the summer & was below -45ºC in the winter) for so long].

So though it is all over now, it still really bothers me. And if they ever show-up here, we will not be letting them in--especially their middle son.
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acrossthefloors
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Time:2012-06-24 03:43 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to have missed this -- I've largely been off the internet for the past two days, and I only saw this post just now. For what it's worth, then, happy birthday; I hope that next week is better for you, and I hope you get bats in your bathouse once it's mounted. <3
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lady_noremon
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Time:2012-06-24 06:18 pm (UTC)
Thank-you, I hope I get bats too. The bats over here are having such a hard time with white nose syndrome, and hopefully the bathouse can help out a few of them.
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alchemy_hisoka
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Time:2012-07-02 10:57 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you were able to sign Claude's guest book, though it's terrible you weren't able to visit him or be at the funeral properly.

I still haven't watched any of series two of Sherlock; do you like it?

Sorry to hear that the Shink contest hasn't worked out as well as you hoped. It can be frustrating as an admin and a fan when your efforts feel like they're going out to an empty room. Most of the LJ communities I used to visit are either much more quiet or inactive. There are a few exceptions (e.g., the Man From UNCLE fandom has stuck to LJ, though I don't check the communities anymore), but it seems like a lot of fandoms have moved over to Tumblr, various forums, or just disintegrated. Aside from two Marvel kink memes, I don't even read fanfic on LJ anymore (I go to AO3). I don't know if there would be more Shink fans on Dreamwidth, or on Tumblr. Even if there are, though, I don't think it would be the same as this community you've created and invested in yourself.

On the other hand, there are still some people on LJ, so maybe they'll pop their heads up?

I'm not sure if you're counting me in the group of people who didn't contact you or not, but I should have called you and not just left it with the package and email. I'm sorry for that.

I'm also sorry for all the difficulties and really crappy things you've been going through and had to put up with lately. As might have been evident, I didn't keep up with LJ at all while in Maine/New Hampshire. Reading the entries now, I don't know exactly what to say. I wish I could change things and that you didn't have to go through all this shit.
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lady_noremon
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Time:2012-07-19 04:06 am (UTC)
I feel the worse that I never got to bring him those fish & chips, especially since I had promised.

It is alright! I love Watson's festive holiday sweaters/jumpers! And their Hound of the Baskervilles was also interesting, but then again it has Russell Tovey :}

It is just really disheartening since I asked who was interested and since a bunch were, I did a poll and figured that if even a few of those that voted yes/showed interest participated it would be a nice little event. One member asked if I would move the community to DreamWidth, but given that most of the content is fanfiction I don't plan to since authors' wouldn't get notified of comments made elsewhere, some probably wouldn't want their stuff posted elsewhere, and DreamWidth doesn't work as well on mobile devices which is the main thing I use. But yeah, it got 3 entries after I extended the deadline...Which really isn't fair to call a contest. I posted asking what to do about it, but only one person replied. They think it should just stay as a celebratory event for the fandom, so that's what I'm leaving it as. I might try something again in late autumn though if I can find places to advertise it better.

Not you at all! I guess my main thing was I just wanted to be thought about/remembered. I sent Christmas cards, and I've tried messaging people on their birthdays even if I doubt they want to hear from me, and it is really crappy that no-one could be bothered, along with family crap. I just know what to do or how to deal.

And I know that you've been hella busy & dealing with a lot, and I wish I could be there better/know what to say as well. But I do have you in my thoughts, if that means much!
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